Abstract:
This study examines decolonial potential within the culturally posited
narrative research, where it becomes possible for the researcher and the
research participants to be critically self-reflective. The premise of this
study is based on my experiences as an early career academic from a Sri
Lankan state university, who has been researching the Faculty of Law (FoL)
undergraduates’ reluctance to speak in English from a cultural lens. Using an
innovative conceptualization titled encultured axiom of linguistic shame-fear
(linguistic lajja-baya), which is derived from Sri Lankan culture, I studied
the different ways in which my FoL students displayed their reluctance to
speak in English within and outside the English Language Teaching (ELT)
classroom. Within this research, this conceptualisation is defined as culturally
situated self-policing mechanisms which might prompt individuals to feel
insecure and to regulate their language related thoughts and behaviours.
This research is located within the social constructivist research paradigm,
representing a poststructuralist orientation at its centre. Accordingly, the
FoL undergraduate is identified as a diverse, contradictory and dynamic
individual who departs from an essential, fixed or a coherent core. Thus, it
was necessary to capture such nuances qualitatively in my research, where
I wanted to critically explore my respondents’ inner thoughts along with the
way they behaved in the socio-cultural world in understanding their reluctance
to speak in English. Accordingly, Narrative Inquiry (NI) was adopted as the
data collection methodology of this research, where narrative interviews
and Identity Portraits (IPs) were used as the data collection tools. This study
specifically highlights the significance of using IPs as a rigorous data collection
tool that can be used to visually represent the meaning making processes in
social life. Accordingly, two participants of this study were asked to share their
linguistic journeys of learning to speak English as narrative interviews and
IPs. This process of narrative knowledging and self-reflexivity represented an
epistemic turn that could deconstruct the thoughts and practices related to
the Global North in order to incite the knowledge and the culture of teachers,
students, and institutions of the Global South. In other words, both these FoL
undergraduates identified themselves to be the ‘deficient other’ through the
presence of culturally situated linguistic shame-fear, subscribing to the colonial ideologies associated with ELT. This is where ELT echoes constructions of
colonialism through the native speaker/non-native speaker dichotomy, as
well as the images of self and other. This study argues that culturally situated
linguistic shame-fear is also influenced through this colonial discourse, where
it incites the individuals to identify themselves as ‘deficient’. However, by
being self-reflexive, these FoL undergraduates were able to be authors of their
own decolonizing texts, where they could start challenging colonial ideologies
on their own terms. Accordingly, this study represents decolonial potential
through its methodological and epistemological approaches.